almost there

One week until I go to Spain. ONE WEEK. Oh my goodness. I can't believe that the moment I have been looking forward to since last spring is almost here. Don't get me wrong, I am super super excited and so thankful. It's just that the closer I get, the more I have doubts about going.

Truth is, I'm kind of scared out of my mind. I'm excited about the journey itself, but I'm nervous about speaking Spanish. I'm nervous about making friends. I'm nervous about being in a strange city. I'm SUPER nervous about failing in my studies. I'm scared that I'll fall further away from God.

You probably think I'm a crazy person right now. Apparently God did too. Unexpectedly, He led me to an article in Brio, a magazine I used to get when I was younger. I'd like to share it with you now.

Still, Small Voice

God speaks in all sorts of ways. Sometimes He reveals His will to us by an impression. Sometimes He speaks by an inner voice. Sometimes we can hear Him speaking through the voice of a stranger, a friend, the words of a song, a thought from a book, a verse of Scripture.

God's Voice

Stills you

Leads you

Reassures you

Enlightens you

Encourages you

Comforts you

Calms you

Convicts you

Satan's Voice

Rushes you

Pushes you

Frightens you

Confuses you

Discourages you

Worries you

Obsesses you

Condemns you

So apparently I've been listening to the wrong voice. I've been obsessing about my worries, and those fears that I developed confused me because I was so excited about this trip. Instead of comfort, I had worry. In a way this was very familiar to me because one of my biggest problems is worrying. I worry and worry about the outcome instead of trusting in the Person in control of the outcome.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:6-7)

My favorite verses :) Now instead of worrying, I just remember this article and remember that God is trying to comfort me, reassure me, encourage me, and lead me. I just have to listen to the right voice.